Expert on Failure

You can only fail when you try something. You can only fail big and magnificently if you try something big and magnificent. ... on the other side of the coin of course you can also magnificently(or just)succeed.

At the moment I have equally failed and been very successful. I have done seemingly stupid things that many people do, yet for completely different reasons and intentions that people usually do these things for.

I have risked everything I currently have because I was tired of the game I was playing. The game of merely surviving bores me. I would risk everything because I was bored? No, it's about what I want to gain by investing my attention and resources into new place. Putting your skin in the game and taking a big risk.

I am sure it works out magnificent and even if it should not I regret nothing because I actually do have the guts to go after what I really want and however grand the failure could be at least I am not a little bitch whining about my life while conveniently doing nothing.

It is not like I have felt super confident in everything I have done or even known if I was doing things the right way. I just did it anyway and sure the stress has been miles high but I am still standing. I have experienced full range of emotions in the process and I am still standing. I don't feel that I am the same person anymore... or more like I am more me which I haven't been before.