Process

I am going through a very interesting process for quite some time already. Actually for years. It's been seven years. I have been under the

pressure of darkness that forms diamonds. My hand has been held by the Universe as if I was the most fragile and precious thing. I have lost complete and any belief in my intuition and found my way back to it with the clarity of connection I had never ever experienced before. I had forgotten completely having any talent and capability whatsoever and found my way back discovering I had never actually acknowledged the scope of my abilities anyway. I had believed I was fat and ugly and discovered when I actually became fat I was still beautiful

and was never really fat to begin with. I didn't believe I could create myself a life I would want to live after first 'psychosis' and laid in front of the train but have now come to point where I am really excited about my life and amazed that I have created the situation where I am in my life.

So it has been the process of unbecoming what I am not and re-creating my life as I really want it. How lucky am I? I don't mean to rub it in on anyone, but I seriously think I am super lucky. Though, when talking in terms of 'luck', then I have also made many many 'dangerous' wishes and 'wants' in my life, so I believe it "bit me in the ass" in the end... How lucky am I? Lol.